It’s been 3 years. And things happened a lot since the year 2006. Until today, I am still amazed at how many things I had went through. In fact, the whole of my life has not been a smooth sailing, it has been rocking ups and downs, going through several thunderstorms -unpredictable and terrible weathers that drained my strength at times. But today, as it will be the last day I am here, I must admit this is a place where I will miss kinda badly while I am away for eight months. This is the place where I have grown. The place where I could see stars up above the sky and I feel peace. This is where I truly found God. A church, finally. Friends for life-tears and laughter. Place where I feel belonged no matter how much we all love to ‘kutuk’ the university. A place where I earned my own self-recognition, my own self-worth. My confidence. And many more…there’s just too much to be listed down.
Unknowingly, I have learned to love and care for people nearest to me. That was so unlike the girl I used to be 4 years ago when I was selfish and arrogant, not willing to care for others, lest fearing myself would not be benefited after all the ordeal of trying to please and make others happy. Today, whenever I see selfish people who only brag about themselves yet never try their best to try and offer even a helping hand, I look on with detest. They simply do not know what they have lost. Time will eventually teach them, often through the hard way.
Life is a journey for us to learn. I believe there’s more for me out there. It’s of my hope to be a woman my family can look on with pride and that I could extend my own wings and soar up high. It could be a lonely journey out there, but I trust Him to bring me the path I ought to take. One day, if God grants me a loving partner and after that my own little children (it could be 40 years later… =..=), I would in fact tell them this story of mine of how I stumbled upon the path I thought least of taking, and yet I became successful out of it.
Now, that’s really some motivation. Hence, I gotta get up and run. Run and run towards that goal. I know most women at my age think only about a future with family, love and blessed marriage. But I have to be different. To earn my independence, my own freedom, I have to be different from other women. To be truly happy for my own self, accomplishments are important. And for me, it’s okay to be ambitious…as long as you don’t use people as means to achieve your ends. There’s nothing wrong about a woman willing to be an exception and be a person on the same level with other men. And I will be the woman. Let me flap my wings and fly to my heart’s content.
And before my thoughts bring me elsewhere, here is my farewell I bid to all graduating seniors and all my dear juniors. We had such such memorable days together, and I cherished all those sweet and sour and sometimes bitter memories. May God bless you in your future undertakings, and for those who miss me, please do, because I know I will too. =)
I believe that this quote is true: “Friends are those rare people who ask how we are and then wait to hear the answer.”
Say if I am unable to bug you people, make the first initiative to bug me first la. Hahaha :p I will be very touched if you guys do that. =)
